C'est la vie: A: Loves to flirt. B: Loves people. C: BEST SMILE. D: Good at sex. E: Freaking beautiful. F: People are wild and crazy about you. G: Never let people tell you what to do. H: Likes to act crazy as hell. I: Loves to laugh. J: Freaking rowdy. K: Really silly. L: Very attractive. M: Makes dating fun. N: Has one of the best personalities ever. O: Loved by everyone. P: Popular with all types of people. Q: A hypocrite. R: A freak in bed. S: Easy to fall in love with. T: REALLY easy to fall in love with. U: Gets hugs. V: Not judgmental. W: Very broad minded. X: Never let people tell you what to do. Y: GREAT kisser. Z: Lives life for fun.
Z: Lives life for fun. H: Likes to act crazy as hell. E: Freaking beautiful. N: Has one of the best personalities ever. G: Never let people tell you what to do.
M: Makes dating fun. I: Loves to laugh. N: Has one of the best personalities ever. L: Very attractive. U: Gets hugs.
Koped from gen gen. lol. hahas. Erh.. I have no comments though.
Have fun. I shall go back to my dearest piano for now. Goodbye!
lu 10:24 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
C'est la vie: First thing, thanks guys, for the encouragement.
Fri was really fun watching mr bean. I shall spare the details.
Sat, Prof Jenkin's masterclass. Gosh, so jealous of him. If only I can be like him....
Nothing much. Bye!
lu 5:52 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
A lil' thought as life goes on...
C'est la vie:
Got back my music paper. *GASPS* 52.5 *GASPS*. Upon 100. My first C for assweek this term. First C probably for now, till tml. In fact I got it back the paper on tue. But these few day's I just can't sleep, nor could I concentrate on the things I do. It's not the results, I'm used to getting back worse results esp back in dhs. I promise it's a lot worse than that.
I really feel very guilty and sorry about this. But to whom can I apologize? As a properly brought up brat, I feel the need to apologise. I was wrong, terribly wrong. I regret, but it's not the results which made me. It's my conscience, and it's engulfing me slowly everyday for the past few nights. I can't sleep, insomnia and my conscience is hunting me down. I really really should have studied harder for music shouldn't I? Yes, I should have, I should have. I damn myself for not studying. Damn it.
Mr Seow is such a saintly figure. He has done his utmost best to really teach us despite his schedule, given me opportunities time and time again. In the end this is what he got from me. This kind of lousy stuff which I can't bear to read. I have never in my life seen such a devoted teacher before. From his tone, I guess he was quite disappointed, I knew he would be, even before the exam. Let's hope what ms huang said is right, he is really saintly to that degree and he won't give up on us.
I feel really intimidated these few days when I met him round the school. Don't have the guts to face him. I'm supposed to be brought up strong, probably not this time. I've let him down, real much. This is not what he's supposed to get in return, it's just not fair for him. It's downright obvious I crapped my way through the history part. But it just made me more guilty. It all goes out to show how immature, insensible, selfish, self-centered and lousy I can get. It's just so immoral. I've betrayed his trust and faith altogether.
Thank goodness I got a gastric flu this morning and didn't have to go face him during PE meeting today.
Gosh, I really despise myself. For being capable of the above deeds stated by yours sincerely and for being such a gutless idiot.
PS: I really really hope, that he had not lost hope cause of my hopeless grades, I know this is too asking too much, but I really hope, for the last time, and I swear things would change. PSS: I'm not emo-ing, just reflecting on things.
lu 9:47 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
C'est la vie: I went blog hopping just now, and read Alicia's blog. Really inspiring. Had this sudden motivation and hope for things.
"The painful process you have to endure for you want something real bad. a contradiction to what i've said before that waiting is beautiful process. Yet i still stand by what i've said. Maybe i should change it to Waiting is a beautiful kind of pain. No, pain is not something negative here. It teaches you to be stronger and it reminds you that you have to cross all these hurdles to the final goal. It is a test of your will and how much do you really want something."
Waiting is a painful process, to me actually. Beautiful in some sense, yes. The torment which would amount to a great deal of your assets in future. Literally, amassing your $. But like I said previously, I got sick and tired of this materialistic world, but contradicting enough, I am a supremely materialistic person.
Alicia, I admire your courage, which I lack.
lu 9:33 PM
C'est la vie
So school is ending. Ha. No hope for rest till london trip. I can see the stress coming. First time in my life, when I feel like kissing mississippi during hols. Lotsa stuff, guess by then, london is really gonna be a reward. Let nature take it's course then, I can't do much, though there's much regret. I feel this break is fruitful, but not long enough. Students are pathetic creatures ain't we?
But I believe i'll make it like I always do.
Before I end off, I koped this from jh. hahas. Her lameness is contagious even online....
Happy holidays!
HAPPY as in,
Homework And Projects Pilling Your way aye?
sigh....
lu 8:54 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
C'est la vie: ok hiking today. Bet u guys don't believe me man. I think so too. A miracle happened. But seriously it was quality time. And really refreshening. Though it's like 10km for 3 hours. I almost went mad after the 3 hours. But it is spiritually rewarding. =) Stress relieve. Nature trail. Really shldn't mention varun before we left. Plus I said his name 6x. Ouch. ok. Imagine the rain that came down on us during the hike man. (non causa pro causa=D) Really really surrounded by nothing but scary green trees for 3 hours and perhaps the lousy golf course which stood in our way. And my legs are freaking tired now. I swear it's more hiong than obs ok. Finished the hike drenched from head to toe and the thunderstorm is seriously those which can really blow ur umbrella into facing the other side. But still it's quality time. and definitely rewarding.
One more thing, have to thank all those who had helped or encouraged me in one way or the other =) Actually everybody lah.
But I'm dead tired now. I possessed 301 songs yet there is a massive drought. Sigh... Donations anybody? hahas.
lu 10:10 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
C'est la vie: enough of emo stuff. something light-hearted for a change... Roddy will love it... =)
See, what happens when you don't practise for piano lessons.....
Proper concert behaviours...
Roddy, don't worry about your 'small' hands... =)
lu 9:14 PM
C'est la vie:
It's these substandard motels on the (lalalalala) corner of 4th and Fremont Street. Appealing only because they are just that un-appealing Any practiced catholic would cross themselves upon entering. The rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe just a dash of formaldehyde, And the habit of decomposing right before your very (lalalala) eyes.
Along with the people inside What a wonderful caricature of intimacy Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Tonight tenants range from: a lawyer and a virgin Accessorizing with a rosary tucked inside her lingerie She's getting a job at the firm come Monday. The Mrs. will stay with the cheating attorney moonlighting aside, she really needs his money. Oh, wonderful caricature of intimacy.
Yeah (Yeah)
And not to mention, the constable, and his proposition, for that "virgin" Yes, the one the lawyer met with on "strictly business" as he said to the Mrs. Well, only hours before, after he had left, she was fixing her face in a compact. There was a terrible crash (There was a terrible crash) Between her and the badge She spilled her purse and her bag, and held a "purse" of a different kind.
Along with the people inside What a wonderful caricature of intimacy Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
There are no raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses. It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses At the shade of the sheets and before all the stains And a few more of your least favorite things.
Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses At the shade of the sheets and before all the stains And a few more of your least favorite things.
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses At the shade of the sheets and before all the stains And a few more of your least favorite things.
Raindrops on roses and the girls in white dresses And the sleeping with the roaches and the taking best guesses At the shade of the sheets and before all the stains And a few more of your least favorite things.
Enjoy! It's one of those lyrics which really makes you think. A lot more than those lousy comprehensions. And the music is alot better than neoclassicism. The horrors of it all... I love the cello part for this =)
lu 11:01 AM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
C'est la vie: I'm just sick and tired lah.
I know i can't go on like this.
But i'm really tired of this.
But this really can't go on.
Why are such stuff happening when it never did.
I hope to travel back in time.
When things like that don't happen.
Thing's ain't sweet anymore.
It's getting more materialistic every second.
And I'm getting so disgusted by myself and by how people get over unimportant stuff.
People just don't get it.
We all do science.
We all know experiments. Readings are often not accurate.
So are our grades. It may not be 100% accurate but I'm not saying it's not.
Why make such a big fuss out of those crap when the most important thing is that we learn as much out of it as possible.
What the fuck.
My life is in a mess.
I just hope to bury myself in a book, in an imaginery world that's too far off from real life than any others. Harry Potter book 6? I lost count.
I still hope to kiss mississippi. It's not the exams it's my life as a whole. Everything just don't work out. I'm not anti-social, I just can't be, but I'm disgusted by everything. I'm so disgusted.
人生就象一袭华美的袍子,爬满了蚤子......
Really wondering what's wrong with me lately.
I can't just withdraw from the world. Things don't work this way.
But I can't. No I'm just too self centered.
Gosh.
lu 8:46 PM
C'est la vie: kena S paper again. Sigh. It was ok i guess. Just that after 6 hours i had a lousy headache till now. Mum treated me to hagen daz fondue. which rocks the sweet indulgence which is gonna keep me on vegetarian food for the rest of my hols.
lu 8:35 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
C'est la vie:
It's gonna be the final time.
I know I will make it just like any other times.
It's starhub centre again.
A feeling of nostalgia.
Never knew things could change so much in just a couple of years.
I was there for the first time 5 years ago taking my first abrsm theory paper. (I used to be taking trinity) with mich. Time flies and it's gonna be my last theory paper in my life (I hope) and it's starhub centre again. The last time mich was taking 5 and I'm taking 3. Now I'm taking 8 and smbdy's stuck at 5. teehee. but just look at how things changed. 5 years I've gone through a total of 3 transfers from primary schl to sec and finally nj.
Starhub centre.
Off to do the final mugging. =)
lu 9:08 PM
C'est la vie: Gastritis. It's true ok. Not faking.
