C'est la vie:Pressed smthg wrongly and my post got deleted. Forget it. I'm furious. Wait, wait, wait, I'm suppose to control my temper. It's good for me and my terribly twisted tongue (I got my tongue twisted over simple words recently). Control. Went Lido on Friday to watch movies with mom. She took a day off to watch Oliver Twist. She said she needed a break desperately, so do I. So off we went. Followed by one whole day of shoppin'. Wasn't too sunny, great weather. I hate sunny days. Makes me more tan and increase my freckles. You know, I am real spotty. As in as spotty as a leopard. Yeah, you get it? Talk about my tan. I met or at least thought so, Mdm Quek when I return home from NTUC. She's wearing her usuals. Long dress, sandals worn as though they are slippers, specs, her first child in a pram. She look real pissed. Pregnant women are scarry. I didn't acknowledge her, since she didn't seem to remember me. Like I say, I am really afraid of pregnant women. I SAID AFRAID ok? So, I guess you will never see me pregnant. I said GUESS. Anyway, I didn't acknowledge her cos I was dressed exactly like a maid that day. What do you expect me to wear when I'm going to get groceries? Jeans? Anyway, I wore this awful lookin' bermuda, this stupid looking sleeveless blouse and a this pair of slippers, with my toe (cut by a shrub) showing itself off dumbly. So, I'm supposed I SAID SUPPOSED to look confident in front of her aren't I? But I'm not a least bit. I look like a downright slave, at that moment ok. Anybody needs a maid? So that I can charge you see. Not only look, I FEEL like that as well. My tan and freckles made it all worse. Not only appearance. I'm different from the me 2 years ago. Am I suppose to go up to her triumphantly and tell her that my ranking in class was x ? And say proudly that it's my best ranking out in these two years? Oh, and I've kicked a shrub on the way there and cut my toe as well. Owell, it's jus some, Arh... 2 years. 2 years already. My friend just got his PSLE results. Said, he's joining dhs next year. High possiblity. I said HIGH POSSIBILITY. But, that's not his first choice. Hello?! He stays in erhm woodlands?! Anyway, I hope he would consider RV more than DHS, not that I don't like dhs. I love it. Of course if he joins DHS, i would give him my blessings as well. But, it's kinda far isn't it?! And his father is often OUT of singapore. Who's gonna drive him to schl? Oh, the selfish side of me. Next year if we were to meet durin' cny, don't you think my position is kinda awkward?Anyway, that's all for today... It's enough...Tata!You are everything, and everything is you...
lu
9:39 PM
C'est la vie:Can't think of a suitable url for my blog. Maybe I should just leave it as it is. Yup. Is this an excuse not to forget the past? I'm not supposed to anyway. I still can't find a proper skin for my blog. I want something close to me, something that's me. Argh, forget it. I shan't change my skin as well. Owells. Oh, my play. There it is:Act 1 Scene 2
Setting: Maid’s room
B: I’m leaving for Italy when dawn breaks.
C: Have you packed your stuff?
B: Yes. Don’t you have anything to tell me?
C: Have you brought your aspirin? You always get headaches when you’er stressed.
B: Yes. And?
C: Bring some thick coats along; you may not be able to get your clothes as fast as winter approaches. I’ll go prepare for you now.
B: Wait! Don’t you have anything else to tell me except for these?
C: Take care.
B: Nothing more?
Don’t you love me?
C: What do you expect me to say?
I love you? To somebody whom I cannot marry?
B: But I love you!
Embraces C
No matter how far apart we are, always remember that I’ll love you forever.
C: Embraced B for almost a minute
I’ll miss you!
Suddenly pushed him away.
I think you’d better leave now, before you miss your flight.
B: Ok, then. Goodbye darling!
Exeunt omnes
Scriptwriter’s note:
C: Cecilia.For the first scene please view my previous entry!Comments please!
lu
9:16 PM
C'est la vie:So, shopping for groceries isn't that bad afterall. Oh, yesterday, when I woke to make breakfast (for myself that is), I realise that some stupid birdie(s) just happily flew in and made themselves real comfortable. Ate all of my tomatoes 3 actually and shitted all over the place. WT...(fill in the blanks) My breakfast. Stupid bird(s). It's not eaten completed. IT'S LIKE ONE MOUTHFUL PER TOMATO! WTH... Wasted 3 of my real fresh and big and juicy tomatoes. Cos my mummy said there's bird flu going around and i obviously have no idea what stupid bird(s) it/they were/was. (cancel appropriately) Anyway, I was pissed.There goes half or my breakfast in the rubbish bin. Oh, and I've gotta clean up the stupid birdies' shit. WTH(I am very tempted to use the F, but since it's only a birdie, I shall forgive and forget) So, when grandma returns from NTUC, the place is clean except for those 3 tomatoes to show her.Today a piece of cloth flew into our kitchen window.Dad: Is this ours?Mum: No, it just flew in. Please.Dad: Should I throw it up so that the rightful owner can have it back? Mum: If you don't mindDad: Never mind, if it didn't get up I'll be charged for killer litterMum: As if a piece of cloth can kill (which is true, if a litter doesn't kill, it's not considered a killer litter, but you will be charged for littering)Me: What if somebody's trying to cross the road (carpark rather), and the cloth landed on his face and a car went knocking him down cos he got blinded by the cloth? (I tried to think of something to go on 'and-ing' but I can't so I stopped there. Don't say it's short. Mum, Dad, Grandma: -.-
lu
9:49 PM
C'est la vie:
People, don't hurry me. I will relink when I change my skin and URL.
A new beginning ahead next year marks a new start and a new chapter in my life. So, naturally a new url would be needed. Just how long is eternity? From today onwards 'forever' shall be out of my dictionary (Note I didn't say it's out of my dictionary forever). How contradictory can I get? Anyway, these few days are getting more meaningful. Realised that I had accidently equated carefree with aimless. More stuff to do. Eng and Chi calligraphy, sounds so exciting. Tomorrow is my dear interview for x. Shan't say. Carefree meant I can do anything I want yet aimless meant doing nothing in life, just going around in circles. Contradictions. Anyway, I still miss drama alot. Only in drama, can I be someone none other than my true self. I can do whatever I can't in real life due to the many restrictions in life. Yet, I guess there's not much chance of me acting any longer. So, farewell drama? Nope, like I say, I am my true self with drama, so I can't live without it. So, here I am no longer as an amateur or noobie actress but a real noobie scriptwriter. This is my first time please comment. It's in a serial format. Today is just the first scene. Do check back for more! I’ve decided to play around with the plot of Alex Haley’s Queen. So, this is the modern version of Queen in the form of a play. Do try acting this out. I don’t really have the chance to act anymore, so I’ve resorted to writing scripts. Also, I’m the producer of this, it’s copyrighted. Take note of plagiarism. For public appearances, please acknowledge me! :)
Act 1 scene 1.
Setting: Park walking side by side
A: You’er leaving tomorrow?
B: Yes, to Italy.
A: For four years?
B: Silently nodded
Yes, for four years.
A: Must you really go?
B: Duh*
A: So for four years, you’ll be leaving me here, stuck without company?
Who do you expect me to dance with when you’ll away?
B: Don’t be silly. You’er card was always full, remember?
A: But that was a lie just to spike you off!
B: Oh…So, it was a lie?
A: It was just a white lie. Anyway, aren’t you going to promise me anything?
B: What promise?
A: What if you run away with some girls at college?
B: Huh? Oh… Somebody’s jealous.
A: Be serious!
B: Ok ok, fine. I promise
A: Swear
B: Swear
A: That?
B: I will marry you when I return from college.
A: Smiles
Embraces
Exeunt omnes
Scriptwriter’s note: I meant ‘of course’.hahas. There’s no such thing as duh at that time.
B: Bassanio
A: Not Antonio unfortunately, those two lovebirds had to be seperated (ok fine, according to ms tan, they’re NOT homosexuals.) Anyway, she’s Asper.So, do check back for my plays. Oh, I'm so enjoying this! Tata!
lu
8:46 PM
C’est la vie:
A sudden love for linkin park’s songs lurked somewhere in my room again.
Let me dedicate the following songs to people / places
1. Breaking the habit (to myself)
2. In the End (to DHS)
3. My December ( to twojayohfive!™ and 06IP04)
4. Somewhere I belong (to NJC)
5. Numb-encore ( to the ever-changing world)
(Enough of Linkin Park, someone else now)
6. Boulevard of broken dreams-green day ( to myself again)
(By the way, if you guys have this least bit of kindness for me, please call my house number k? I am really stuck up at home like this wild beast in a cage. Anyway, Sagittarius is a beast, yeah? Back to my point, this is my second public appeal to call my house; can you just show some kindness to me and call?)
7. Prelude in B minor-Chopin (to twojayohfive!™)
I shall go down the line and elaborate on my choice of songs / piece.
1. I am breaking a habit, I broke the habit of going to Dunman High everyday, I don’t know how I got this way or whether I would ever be alright, which I hope I would be. Actually, we all should try and break our habits to scale greater heights and explore new things yeah? Actually, I have to break this habit, cos’ I have no options left. (Those who had seen my EOYs and my FY report slip should know why)
2. For my dearest darling DHS, I am very depressed everything ended up like this. The clock ticked and two years went pass just like that. I tried so hard and got so far. But in the end, it doesn’t even matter. Yes, dunmanians, and dhs, you wouldn’t even recognize me anymore a few years down the road. I tried so hard and lose it all. I put my trust in you. I think you did too. Push as far as I can go. Anyway, I think a modern shakesphere like perhaps Vir or gen gen can write a new play of Minlu. Btw, it’s gonna be a tragedy of how I went from hero to zero (and this change took palce in just a blink of an eye) and took me so much effort just to save part of it from turning into a tragedy. It still did anyway. (Sorry this is very disorganised cos’ I tried following the lyrics but it’s so fast that I gave up)
3. My December, our school hols, and when I was born. When I will be enjoying my last month with the status of a Dunmanian. When at the same time, I would be enjoying my status as an njc-ian (according to perle and chenfeng, to be creative, we ought to call ourselves nationalian? Which sound so wired and make us feel like politicians) Anyway, wish you guys a happy holiday! Enjoy before it ends! All the best in your future endeavours!
4. Somewhere I belong which will be NJC for the upcoming four years. So, naturally this song goes to NJC. I was confused and on my own, I want to heal and I wanna let go of the pain I felt for so long. I need a change and heal from my wounds, in a place I belong. I bet you guys found that my ego was diminishing in 2005 right? Yes you are right, I didn’t hide it anywhere, and my ego was almost gone. I need to heal those broken parts of my ego you see, but once it’s healed I would be hiding it somewhere though. Lolx. Everything was going downslope, during the past few months, my emotions, my grades, everything. Hey, I swear I wasn’t PMS-ing (who would be PMS-ing everyday of the month?). I need a change of environment, preferably somewhere I belong.
5. I am numb to the changes of the world. People around me changes, my life is suffering or undergoing (on the brighter side) great changes. These changes I shan’t say. Just to give an example, my new journey in NJC and all that sorts of stuff. Every step that I take brings about a change. Hopefully these changes would bring me to the cheese I am looking forward to.
6. Greenday’s boulevard of broken dreams. I walk a lonely road the only one that I have ever known. Yes, I feel all alone now, that shall explain my public appeal for phone calls. Please, since I am a tragic figure, I should by right go from hero to zero, and I am. So, a zero doesn’t have guts ok? Seriously, I don’t have the guts to call you guys. I don’t want to be taken as this invisible person who had ceased to exist in this world a long time ago. I am afraid of you guys giving me a cold shoulder ok? Hope that you know, some dunmanians don’t take me as one any longer (or at least this was what I felt) , yet my relations with 06IP04 are like two half-cooked beef steaks (bu shou) lolx. It’s meant to be a cold joke. So, I am stuck at home feeling alone. So, please do continue to talk to me in the way you used to, the tonality and everything. If not I will feel uneasy yeah?
7. Chopin’s Prelude in B minor Opus 28 no.6. It’s one of those special pieces in my life. Why? It’s the last piece I played in DHS’ piano at the foyer. It gives me a kinda of nostalgic feeling. Everytime I play that piece everything would go back to the 28 October 2005. Especially at 6+pm. when I last walked into that lime green classroom on the second floor. When everything is empty and quiet. When my own voice echoed in the room and the everyday noises of the class echoed in my head. The only two signs of our occupation were the lime green walls and a line of words written in bimbotic pink ink on the noticeboard which reads ‘twojayohfive rocks forever’. Then I dashed madly over to the linkway between block A and B. For the first time ever, it looked beautiful. The palm trees which were swaying at the side formed a boulevard on the first floor. I went all over the school taking photos of every single corner of it and appreciating their beauty for the first time in almost two years. Finally, it was getting dark and about to rain (I seldom bring my umbrella in these two years). So, at the piano, I, for the last time, played a piece with my status as a dunmanian. That piece was, as mentioned earlier, Chopin’s Prelude in B minor Opus 28 no.6. Oh, mind you, two years ago, I when I first stepped into dhs, it was 6+pm. as well. I got posted there and I got really upset that I was cryin’? Pherhaps, I should go down and take a look there. So, the first thing that caught my eyes was the fountain and the last thing that had caught my eye on the last day of school was that fountain again. It was the last architectual I took a photo of before I left the place, abandoning my status as a dunmanian.
End of dedication.
Btw, to gen gen, what’s Pinkham famous for? Not that I didn’t pay attention to what you had said, but his name is so commonly misused by us that I forgot what’s he famous for. Sorry.
Now, talks of NJC. I am hope you realise, in class 06IP04. Induction was bitter and sweet. Sour, yet tasty, but I’m NOT pregnant ok? Oh hey guys! I’m in the PURPLE house! PURPLE k!!?! Hahas! My love for purple would never die. Back to my induction. The games were all wet games. I was like ‘qi fu cai niao’. But, think about it again, they are in a jc what do you expect them to play? Crawl here crawl there and fullstop? Lolx. We had mass dance which made me feel like an elephant as well as Dhs’ doors. Hahas. Oh, and my class next year is gonna be lime green again. Nostalgia. It does gonna be a familiar environment with unfamiliar faces. Oh, maybe not as much as you guys stayin in DHP? But still lime green does bring back memories. Oh, for once I began to appreciate being in a SAP school for two years. I didn’t realise that for two years I had skipped taking a very troublesome subject and yet I was grumbling everyday. That subject is normal Chinese. Hey, you guys are complaining about taking history of contemporary china for just a term when poor things here have to learn to accept the fact that they would have to take normal Chinese. At least history of contemporary china sounds more interesting than normal Chinese which reminds me of tkb again. TKB jumped straight from teaching N(A) to Special. Wadehell. Didn’t even teach Express before and start teaching us like we know nothing and tried cheating our feelings, but to no avail. We did play pranks on him too actually. Chopin in exchange for zhi LE. Ha! Better not let my mom see this post before she bans me from bloggin’ again. She said she doesn’t want me to land myself in trouble. Fine fine fine. If I don’t curse people here, where can I do so?
Anyway, all the best people!
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly! I’ll do everything, just to touch the sky!
Oh, and I didn't change my hp no. it's in use again! Hooray! And happy Holloweeen!
lu
10:07 PM
