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C'est la vie:
good morning pple. I am so early this morning yeah? lolx
nvm. vexed. sianx... wadever. boliao
talking bout yesterday on the bus. (BTW, I was not really involved, I was one of the last few to get up/squeeze my way up the bus)
'a few pple were not moving to the back of the bus' according to some pple. Then start to threaten using mr sng.
Started to say tt we students were talking in schl still not enough still must talk on bus. WADEHECK! Like we are more free than you? Please la! You know life in singapore is so stressful? Everybody is except for housewives, just cook and do housework then gossip. Everything is the same everyday, no change no nothing. You know, in school stuff are changing daily? You think we have nothing better to do than to talk? Like they are not trying their best to squeeze? So why are you that free enough to go gossip with the bus driver and start trying to think up ways to pass your time and putting all the blame to us students trying to complain to mr sng? Can't you do smthg more contributive to the society than complaining? Can't you contribute something to the society YOURSELF? why cannot alrdy right?

lu
1:20 AM

C’est la vie:
Breakaway…
I’ll spread my wings and
I’ll learn how to fly.
I’ll do all it takes, just to touch the sky…
Make a wish,
Take a chance
And breakaway…

Though I am still left with this chunk of uncompleted work. I think I seriously need to relax. Yeah so here I am.

Sat. The 156-driver must have thought that I am this PRC who don’t know the directions in Singapore and act smart tell me the wrong directions. What the heck! If you don’t know, just say. Don’t tell us the wrong thing. You could have ruined somebody’s bright future-that is if my mother wasn’t with me(I would have taken another bus and go on exploring, end up being late). But something else that’s sad happened. Made me feel so guilty and sad. All thanks to that uncle, why can’t he just say that he don’t know about it?

Sunday. Geneve’s senior acted smart and was proved very wrong.

Mon: Racial Harmony.

Tue: Audition. Finally on that day itself I got the feel. Woots!

Today: That cough syrup is making me sleepy since the first period of the day.

Tomorrow: Probably be very stressed out.

C’est La Vie!

lu
10:42 PM

C'est la vie:
Emotionally sad and happy.
I just wanna breakaway.
I spread my wings
n I'll learn how to fly~
I'll do all it takes just to touch the sky....

Yeah, I might seemed flying but I am sad. Aiya, emotions aside??? Yeah.

Newater trip.
Now i really appreciate my mother to the core. lol. It's so damn interesting. The pipes n everything. Arh, heck. NVM. I shall bombard her with all the questions on those. (hope u guys hear my sacarstic tone here!)

TLTM
so sianx. I am slacking everyday... aiya dono la

MEP concert
rocks the hell outa me.

i gtg le bb

lu
4:10 PM

C'est la vie:

Sad stuff aside for the moment, but yet, the feeling just isn't right. But can I just take a nap, shut up from the world for a moment before facing all the terrible truth again?

Anyway, mep concert is on Sat! Woots! Shall wear my new pants didn't wear it since I 've got it last sat.

So damn tired today.

Arg, so much things just happened recently, so much so that I really wanted to shut up from the world for a moment.

Guitar exam is round the corner. *Takes peep at corner* it's so near! Argh!

This sick feeling suddenly occurred. I felt so damn sick. Aiya, learnt my lessons alrdy. Though not as yet for making decisions, but I am sure I don't want anymore of this kinda lesson.

So damn STRESSED? How come? I don't know. Some things inside me is telling me that my life is all messed up and not right at all. That stupid feeling. Perhaps it is NOT right after all. Perhaps I am really not the type for ip, but built for mainstream?? lolx. Maybe.

Ok, I seriously need a rest and just shut myself away from reality for a few hrs? Yeah.

Btw, zara, bon voyage!!

lu
4:57 PM

C'est La vie:
breakaway

1.5 years ago, I had first stepped into DHS, solemly swearing that I would be out of it 2 years later. And now, when I had almost fufilled it, the sudden thought of staying dawned onto me.

1.5 years ago, I must make that tough decision to join dhs, 1.5 years later, that heartbreaking decision to leave it. Why can't I just get what I want for once? But I mean, not in mainstream la. Feel so extra in cs.

Why such dilemma? Actually is not, but I just don’t want all this to end. To my mother or perhaps the whole world, I am crazy. But I know I am NOT. I don’t like things to end fast. She said I am going to create more trouble and more headaches for her and myself by trying more places. No choice, that’s me. I want somewhere nearer. For goodness sake! I LIVE IN BISHAN. Expect me to go BEDOK?? Even Dhs is nearer.

Let me just reflect a bit on DHS. Perhaps till now, I still couldn’t accept the fact that I am in DHS. Perhaps I am still thinking about my PSLE. Taking that Maths PSLE paper as my lifelong regret. But, I think I know that my life in DHS is going to be history in another half a year’s time,no matter where I am. And I seemed to be clinching to this half a year.
Just read 5 people you will meet in heaven. Yeah. 2J pple, our lives don’t intersect for no reason. We are all there for each other for a reason, not for nothing. I did not get into nygh for a reason. A sudden nostalgia just swept. Yes, I daresay now, I had truly accepted that seemingly grotesque fact then. So, over this half a year, let’s cherish each other’s prescence!

lu
8:40 PM

C'est la vie:
I need help. I need my germie.
TA is too far a dist isn't it. Takes like 1hr+ on expressway.
This sudden nostalgia.
But, I did keep to my promise in the end
Yes, 1.5 yrs ago, I vowed to leave dhs for IP.
Which is possible now.
But shld i just wait? for njc? for my germie
Arhh! Felt like screaming in the middle of the night.
I am crazy I know.
Arh!!
I cannot be staying in the mainstream of course.
It's not possible
Almost every cs member in sec 2 is in dhp.
I am unfortunately NOT in dhp.
Am I supposed to be a social-outcast in cs then?
But, I still don like TJ's location nor it's uni.
Looks like yishun town sec.lolx (sorry no offence)
Cos i think green don't fit me well
But that is not the real reason.
just an excuse.
Yeah, I still want my njc.
Help.
I need smbdy to pull me out of this abyss!
I don't even know wad i shld feel now
on one hand happy
the other-sad

Happy:
Kept my promise.
Don't have to remain in Dhs

Sad:
It's not exactly what i want
It's location n everything
i still prefer nj's prog
location
and facilities

So what shld i do?
My friends are forcing me to nygh.
like I can get in?

I am vexed. I thought at least everything would just come to an end. But no. I only kept half of my promise. The other half u guess urself. A sudden sense of nostalgia. 只叹息一切只能从新再来, 不能从来. If only I wasn't that careless during psle. Will I still be here if that is so? NO~ i wouldn't be such a *nice* (锤心肝)position.

Arhh! Help. Save me outa this abyss!!!!!

lu
10:18 PM

c'est la vie:
Yay! Got in for TA! Think all the mep pupils got in!! So, what shall i do now. NJC or TA???!?! how!!!??? HOW??! how???!!!Arg!!!!

lu
3:32 PM